friends...friends.. friends...

Sometimes I wonder…why do we have friends? Then…I don’t give answers for my question. or I don’t put the effort to find one.. well I see myself as a person who is to a certain extent very independent…and I do my things myself…unless I am at home...the place that I am dependent for many things…for love they pour on me…and extra…
I have abundant of friends but the one that I am close with…not many.. I am friendly but I just cant take everyone meaningful in my life… I think without realizing I have hurt few friends in the sense… I don’t perform in the way that they expect me to be. They want me to be VERY VERY VERY close with them.. I just cant do that when I don’t have the same mentality with them… there is no chemistry… and how am I suppose to be close to someone one that I am not keen to share many things… I am extremely sorry… but the worst part would be when people (friends) force you to be very close to them… I tell you it is the shoddier thing that one will undergo in life…the approaches they take might make you to be frustrated! One day I just hope I can be close friend to everyone…accept everyone as my close friends…either way…hahahaha.. I will… not so hard after all… thank you god for giving all of them to me…I am glad I have all of them…. And I hope… I will…I will… soon!!!!! But…1 thing for sure,,,I can even die for my friends,,, (if I am close with them) so be my friend… my close fiend! You will have the opportunity!!!