being a teacher...

being a teacher.. is simply damn superb.. seriously i enjoy being one!! the school i am attached to now...isnt a first class school but it is the total opposite... students are rough and wild... they are just like that... some are mothers even they are only form 3 and for the boys ...they are holding the responsibility of a father even they are only form 4... no joke dude..this is the scenario in most daily schools... i was shocked when a form 5 boy came to me and said "cikgu kerja la saya...mau beli susu untuk anak..57 ringgit ohh" (teacher i am working, i need to buy milk for my child..it is rm57) ... auch... it is like...damn shocking for me... one part of me i really felt sorry for this poor boy..but... isnt he too fast... ? he is working in a night market to support his form 4 wife and a 4 months old child. ..

sometimes i do wonder why do i enjoy being a teacher in this kinda of school..the thing is basically in this school i am not only teaching my core subject but the fact is i am moulding the students...shaping them to be a better person... which without realizing gives me satisfaction...eternal satisfaction...

i have learnt one basic rule in dealing with this kinda of students....give love...show love to them..n you see miracle happens in your life...love is most powerful tool that heals/repairs/ and strengten the bond between you and your students......

i feel like i am a princess in the school.. the love and appreciation that i have got / am getting is simply amazing...:)

Mr.Sheru..

Jayanthi…jayanhti..!! appa is back home…!

Dhoom dham ,,,.bang..bung.

Auch, its 9 am and I got up in a rush. Rush? Yeah rush because my dad just doesn’t like his children to get up after the sun rises. Well am use to it. I am glad am a morning person. I feel I can do many things, accomplish many stuff as the whole day is just brightly laid out for me. A special thanks to my dad.

After I got up, I walk straight to the kitchen (not to have a cup a coffee of course!) opened my back door and sat on the chair situated just right at the right side of the door.

“Good morning, dude”

“Rrruuuff..woofff…”

That is how Sheru alaways reply my morning wishes. It has become my routine to look at his face first before anyone else. I feel I have all the luck in the world when I see him in the morning. It has been set in my mind that everything will go fine ONLY if I run into him first as soon as I got up. Superstitious? Nay…it is just my believe.

Things has been in such way until Lucky and followed by Jack came into my life. Even though there was a distance initially between the two of them and myself (because of occasionally meeting since I stayed out) eventually we became close. I enjoyed their company more than anybody else.

Nowadays they are the one who scratches my door early in the morning, substituting the alarm clock or sometimes my mother to wake me up. Our relationship has grown from a tiny plant into a huge banyan tree.

Sheru is now no more in my thinking. His thoughts hardly disturb me. Nevertheless, I do spent time with him but it isn’t like last time. He is no more the first one to look for in the morning. Lucky and Jack has taken over the place. Sheru is getting old, he is already in his eighties. He doesn’t look like the Sheru that I use to see. Things have changed in many ways. Sometimes when I work in the kitchen I could hear his soft woofing, recognizing me near to him. I just say hie to him and move on with my work.

Today, 17^th December 2008, the morning was clam and sunny. There isn’t any bad omen that I encounter to indicate the soul that once I was very close going to leave me, going to rest in peace. Sheru has left me abruptly! He was sick but I thought… I thought… he will recover. Things have happened and nothing can be changed. Just now when  I rewind back the days when Sheru was fading from my thought, I sense some sort of regret in me…can I just go back in time to pat him JUST ONCE?

life...being humane

* This is a journal that I am inspired to write after reading Tuesdays with Morrie by Mitch Albom.

In life, you are always chasing things; you go for things that you want rather than on what you need. You need food. You want chocolate sundae. This culture of going after what you want has brought you nowhere and now-here. It has made you forget the root of your being. Just take a moment to flip the daily newspaper or watch the news. What are the top news? Crime, cheat and the fill in the blanks. Why do all these occur?

Have you ever sat back and reflected on why people always want to go after material things? The latest mobile phone, the latest this and the latest that? People are always gobbling new things because those things do not give them satisfaction and that is the reason why they want it more, more and more. These people are actually yearning for something aren’t they? They are so hungry of love that they were accepting substitutes. They were taking up material things and expecting a sort of hug back. But the reality is, it never works. You do not get satisfaction from the things that you want. You cannot substitute material things for love. When you learn to get satisfaction, you will not be materialistic; you will not be a chaser.

How do you get satisfaction in life? Where do you find it? Is it available in the shop? Of course not! You know what really gives you satisfaction? Well, offering what you have to give gives you satisfaction. It is not money or power or material things. It is your time, your concern. Believe me these things that you offer give you meaning and a purpose to your life. Thus you will find satisfaction and when you find it, you will not go after material things that give you nothing but a thirsty soul.

Love is something beyond words. As human being you and I must learn how to give out love and let it come in. Spare sometime for your grandmother who is sitting in the corner of the house, longing one or two caring words from you. You will get satisfaction. Spend some time for friends who want you to listen to them, show your concern and say from your heart that you are always there for them. You see the joy in them, you will get satisfaction. Do the things that come out from your heart and trust me you will be overwhelmed with what comes back.

In conclusion, always give priority to the elements that give you satisfaction and they are none other than offering your love, time, concern and other things that come out from the bottom of your heart. Again going after material things only leaves you in a hungry state. After all we are only living one life.

 

 

 

HARRY POTTER and me

 

            When there is always hoo-ha for each and every Rowling’s new edition, long queue in front of leading bookstore the night before the release of Harry Potter, massive reviews on the net and fill in the blanks. But the reality is that all these hoo-ha did not trigger me to get the Potter story. It just did not attract me to any extent. Once, a few years back, I got the third edition of the Potter story, I flipped through the front pages and there it goes to the shelf. Something stopped me from reading Rowling’s master pieces. Is it because of the genre?

            However things changed. Few weeks back, one of my friends who have the whole lock stock and barrel of Rowling’s novels offered me the first edition of the Potter story –Harry Potter and the philosopher’s stone. This time something made me to read. Initially I was taking a small pace but eventually I moved fast... I was amazed with the Rowling’s originality, creativity and imagination! All the character is just so well develop. The plot moves in such way that it satisfies the need of the readers! A thumb up for Rowling! Well, now I just can’t believe that all these are coming from me. Now I am also the member of Rowling’s fan group.

            All this while I did not know that fantasy stories are capable to capture my attention. I was just so ignorant about the things that actually satisfy my mind and soul. “Thank you” to my friend who offered me the Potter story.

            Even though the main character is Harry Potter, he did not pull me fully to his side. Albus DUMBLEDORE did! Dumbledore affected me more than any other characters in the story. I like the introduction that Rowling gave for the villain in the story, the “you-know-who”@ VOLDEMONT. As I mentioned earlier it simply satisfies the reader. The twist in the story, somewhere in the ending is something unexpected but it gave a momentum to the story. Knowing the truth that Snape isn’t the one is after the stone and all the while he only tried to safe Potter made me to revise my perception on Snape. I re-looked the things that he has done and justified Snape. It is a brilliant twist though!

            My next mission would be to read the 2^nd edition of Rowling’s master piece. To be continued…

th3 play--The taming of a shrew---Shakespeare

Yesterday I was so free and so bored, thus in order to find some excitement I went or this one play entitled "The Taming Of A Shrew". It is one of the master pieces of the father of literature Shakespeare. Well the play was two hours long and it was localized in the sense that there were more Malaysian sort of stuff. Indian dance in between (may be because the choreographer was an Indian guy) and Malay language here and there. This approach was making the audience to feel close to the play (but pity the Iranians who came…they would be stunned by the Malaysian play production). There were certain good actor and actress but some were (….) sorry to say. As for the plot development, I personally think that the script editor should have done her / his job more carefully. I think it should be more précised and condensed. They were trying to put in everything inside which makes the play draggy. Audiences were tired before the suspense was revealed/ before the play reach the peak. Some of the audiences went off in the second hour. (It wasn’t that bad anyway!) I like the part where the tamer of the shrew used Russell Peter’s line "Somebody going get hurt real bad". I was laughing like no body’s business! Only than I realized that the rest of the crowd did not get the joke and they were damn quite! Just imagine Russell Peter in Shakespeare’s play but no one laughs over it! I did look like a mad person… hahaha! The prop used were limited but I got the justification from the crew member in her starting speech that they had a financial problem and that is the reason why they limited their props. The theme used only reminded me of my very own play "The Darkness". Everything was white and black simply to show the dark and good side of people. However in this play the put forward the notion that whatever is black does not always suggest bad and whatever is white does not suggest goodness. It can be vise versa! This is very much acceptable. As for the sound projection, overall it was good. But there is a room for improvement. Hmm… I think I can be a good critique… ( I do it all the time) I have touched on all the elements I suppose…There is a play going on in KL PAC…I heard it from from my friend…I will be going to watch it very soon I suppose…J

one of the recent inspiring movie i have watched..

The freedom writers! An interesting, motivating and most of all an inspiring movie for all teachers and teacher trainee I would say. The story line of the movie is remarkable! This movie is actually a boost for a person like me. After being so long as a teacher trainee, only this semester (6th) I started to have the strong feeling to become a teacher, to be in the field of education and to serve for the young ones. By watching this movie it has reinforced my recent feelings to be a teacher, a good teacher! This movie definitely has left a very great impact on me.
Even though the situation or the scenario in Malaysian school is not that intense as in the movie but I think such exposure gives me a better idea of the challenge a teacher undergoes and as well as the power of A TEACHER! A teacher can do wonders! They can reform the thinking of the young generation which is extremely amazing. Thus, I came to a conclusion that there is nothing impossible for a teacher…everything is possible!
Basically many good notion and teaching strategy can be grabbed from the movie. The different approach that the teacher, Erin, uses to tackle her students is something to look upon. It gives me an idea that teaching is a process...a learning process for a teacher! Apart from that, the dedication that Erin has towards teaching makes me to salute and admire her. She had to sacrifice many things in life in order to achieve her goal and give the best in her field. She did not regard teaching as a “job”, for her it is beyond that. What counts in this profession is self satisfaction that one gets when the product is out there. I just hope this inspiration in me will never fade but grow for the better!

"gundu" whopps..no la...fleshy...

Hmmm…. I am putting on weight…well one part I think.. I look cute but at the same time I think I look awful… hahahaha… I don’t bother actually… but people’s mouth I tell you… worse part…my stupid friends calling me “gundu” (fatty)when I am not! Putting 1 or 2 kg don’t make u fat… it makes you fleshy! Hahahha… in conclusion I like nope I love my new look… ! count my admirers then you will believe me…hahhaha joke of the year!